Who i want to be

Im actually not really sure on how to answer that question when it comes to who i want to be career wise but what i do know is i want to be an amazing mother , wife, and friend. When i leave this universe i want to leave with something memorable like having raised wonderful kids or by being just an outstanding person. I don’t want to waste my life being lost. Career wise defiantly there. But other wise i know in a couple of years who i am going to become. 



Do you ever feel like sometimes people dont like or share a post just because you posted it?.. I feel like that some times… Thinking about it, i believe that holds me back from becoming the person i want to be or from what i want to do. Why do other peoples opinions matter so much.. Maybe thats why i wont do youtube or become a makeup blogger/vlogger who would really read it? And if they do how could i accept the harsh and mean things people have to say? While part of me wants to be known and remember for something great another part of me wants to remain the invisible girl that i am.

Social media

Why is it that now instead of living in the moment and seeing and feeling everything with our own eyes we feel like we have to  see it thru the lens of a phone and record every little thing we do and post it. (Guilty of course) but now we really dont experience life. We live our life’s to please others by taking pictures wearing our best outfits and wearing a ton of makeup and quite honestly we’re just sitting at home trying to get a good picture just to update or social medias on our latest look or adventure. (Again guilty of that too.) Why is it that media has such a strong influence on us now. It seems like everyone today does the same thing. Nobody really stands out. 


How is it that at a such young age we are challaged with picking one of the most important task in our lifes “what are you gonna do for the rest of your life” with that being read you might think im just some highschooler trying to think of what college to go to but the truth is im 21 and stuck. Its been 4 years since i left highschool and quite honestly i dont know if i made the right choice with what i chose to do. I do love the joy doing makeup gives me or when a client smiles because of my work and while others might say im talented i dont feel that way. Now a days everyone is a makeup artist. I dont want to fall in that category of just another one. I want to stand out i want to be different but how?